yeah. ok. my world is kind of being rocked by the realization that i'm impulsive. as my brain...
December 19, 2015
yeah. ok. my world is kind of being rocked by the realization that i”m impulsive.
as my brain reframes my past, it all seems pretty fucking obvious to me now.
and like i just read this nytimes article with a guy with impulsivity problem saying, “i”m just really intuitive”
which, um, is totally a thing i”ve been saying about myself for a really really long time.
while i may not necessarily be wrong about being intuitive, but impulse control is definitely a problem with me.
and it isn”t really something i”ve developed any strategies for managing. only by sheer force of my anxiety have i been able to escape some of my worst impulses. but. there is a lot of self-harm you can do between ‘utter ruin” and, you know, not acting on impulse.
but the reality is, is that i”ve already ruined most of my life. so… do i care?